It seems very appropriate that the last spread I will be doing in 2015 starts with Death.
Death is a signal for transformations. The old self, the old model, the old year is dead. It has ended and it’s time to replace it with something new.
Death is both a time of mourning and celebration: We mourn as we remember the memories of times gone past. We celebrate the coming year and the new experience they will bring to us.
Knight of Wands
Among the court cards, the Knights are symbols of action and activity. They are not merely messengers, they are agents of change.
The Knight of Wands represent the act of the spirit, of creativity: The Knight gallops forward to meet its challenges without hesitation.
We may fear changes. We may fear the unknown. But the Knight of Wands urges us to go beyond that fear, take a new step, and welcome the changes that came after the Death of the old year.
Two of Cups
Two of Cups, according to the Book of Thoth, represents Love. It is the meeting of two souls into understanding. It is the sharing of affections.
As the last card in this spread, Two of Cups is the attitude we should bring as we move forward with the Knight of Wands: An attitude of openess and welcome.
We may not know what the year will be like, but we can welcome it with kindness and warmth. More importantly, we should be kinder and warmer to ourselves this New Year.
In a time when things are changing, when rules are changing, and when we are starting over, we should allow more love and forgiveness for ourselves.
There was a time I was into food literature: non-fiction about the food we eat, why we enjoy some food, and the history of the food we consume. Learning about the hidden intricacies of mundane things is always delightful; and food, even the fancy kinds, are some of the most mundane things we partake everyday.
There was this book that I enjoyed reading, Gastronaut: Adventures in Food for the Romantic, the Foolhardy, and the Brave, where Stefan Gates narrates his various food adventures. In one essay, he decided to try incorporating various stuff from his body into his food: fingernail clippings, semen, urine. The only body stuff he didn’t use are hair (they can’t be digested and can cause problems with one’s intestines) and feces (it’s toxic). It was an interesting exercise in overcoming disgust due to body-related food taboos.
Read more: I was reminded of that essay while reading a viral story today about a woman who used her vaginal yeast to create bread.
Halloween is over but it is still the Feast of All Souls. For this special occasion, I am presenting a pair of two-card spreads.
The first spread has Two of Wands and Six of Swords.
Two of Wands
This card indicate hopes and aspirations. We may be longing for things that are not yet within our reach. Or they may be things that are currently not possible for us.
Six of Swords
This is a card of journeys and transitions. The world is changing and we will not have a place to stay if we choose to stay where we are.
We may still be craving for old hopes and dreams which are already well past their time. It is time to find ourselves new goals and new destinations. There may be fear in taking that first step, but choosing inaction is no longer beneficial to us.
The second spread has Nine of Swords and Six of Coins.
Nine of Swords
This is a card showing our fears taunting us. And yet these fears might not be as potent as they seem.
Six of Coins
This represents nostalgia which may be an unhealthy attachment to our past. Letting go and moving on are needed to bring our lives forward.
Fear and anxiety are often made worse by our minds. Confronting our fears may show us how we allow ourselves to be under the control of something that has no real power. Our fears might be fueled by memory, which in turn drives our guilt. We must learn to make peace with our ghosts: the memories that are holding us back.
The images are from the Gothic Tarot of Vampires created by Riccardo Minetti and Emiliano Mammucari; and published by Lo Scarabeo.
Would you look at that. I actually finished this thirty-day writing challenge thing. Although I feel a little mocked by the Universe for this last writing topic.
Day Thirty: My last love.
I started having a crush on Rodj when he posted a haiku on unrequited crush and ended it with “sayang ang condom”. I never told him this, but I was (and still am) a big fan of his Twitter posts. When we first met each other, he was a very quiet guy, taller than me, and quite shy; I thought he wasn’t interested in me.
But we became friends. And, eventually, friends with benefits. For some people, romantic or sexual relations follow a particular pattern. We had jokes about the timing of those times when we would meet and sleep together, when he realized there was a pattern to it.
Read the rest: I did not expect that we will eventually become boyfriends.
For Halloween, I am presenting a pair of two-card spreads. The first spread displays Eight of Swords and Five of Coins.
Eight of Swords
Despite our efforts and even if we struggle, we are sometimes caught in a bind. There is no immediate way forward on our own.
Five of Coins
Help from the outside will present itself. Another person who might have an interest in our situation will present a solution.
Try as we might, we cannot always surmount challenges on our own. When we might need it the most, an offer for help might appear in front of us. But what are the intentions of these people offering help? How are we expected to return the favor?
The second of today’s spreads are Four of Cups and Three of Coins.
Four of Cups
Options and opportunities are given to us. However, none of these pique our interest.
Three of Coins
A thirst for approval from someone we admire, of recognition of our worth.
We might be receiving attention and praise from other people for what we do or accomplish. But this attention might not affect us because the opinion which matters to us will come from someone else. Our measure of how well we perform will come from a particular observer; what everyone else are saying do not matter.
Images are from the Gothic Tarot of Vampires created by Riccardo Minetti and Emiliano Mammucari; and published by Lo Scarabeo.